Robin Williams once said, "I used to think the worst thing is life was to end up alone. IT'S NOT. The worst thing in life is to end up with people that make you feel all alone." I decided to share this quote because it is very relatable to my own life. More often than not I feel as though I am the odd one out and feel extremely self conscious due to this feeling. No matter what I am doing, whether it's walking through the halls or playing sports, I always feel like people are judging my every move.I had a really good group of friends this year, but then I started dealing with some personal struggles and things changed dramatically. The things that used to make me happy did not make me happy anymore. I stopped laughing at the things my friends and I used to laugh about all the time. My friends knew about my struggles, but it does not change the way they react to things, which makes sense. So as I began to become more quiet and not quite as outgoing I began to feel that my own friends were constantly judging me. I do not know if they were, but that feeling has so much control over a person. I felt as though I was a burden and shouldn't be around because no one wanted to deal with what I am going through. For the first time this year I felt completely alone when I was with my friends for some strange reason, so eventually I just removed myself from the group in order to allow my friends to continue being happy. Another time that I feel alone is during sports. Yes I am part of the team and I joke around with the girls, but I am not the super fast, pretty, and really good athlete that everyone else is. I am part of the team, but I feel like I am the odd one out on the team. In the novel, Gretchen probably believes that she too is the odd one out and this plays a huge role in how lonely Gretchen feels. Loneliness is one of the worst feelings.
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June 2015
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